{"id":2454,"date":"2013-05-02T16:55:00","date_gmt":"2013-05-02T16:55:00","guid":{"rendered":""},"modified":"2022-06-30T11:38:36","modified_gmt":"2022-06-30T11:38:36","slug":"email-del-2-de-mayo-2013","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/eldespotricadoranhedonico.es\/index.php\/2013\/05\/02\/email-del-2-de-mayo-2013\/","title":{"rendered":"Email del 2 de mayo 2013"},"content":{"rendered":"<table align=\"center\" cellpadding=\"0\" cellspacing=\"0\" class=\"tr-caption-container\" style=\"margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto; text-align: center;\">\n<tbody>\n<tr>\n<td style=\"text-align: center;\"><a href=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/1.bp.blogspot.com\/-wF6_2j1casA\/UYKc8FOCrAI\/AAAAAAAAGsU\/jtSdHuT9Dfc\/s1600\/the-self-seers-death-and-man-1911.jpg\" imageanchor=\"1\" style=\"margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto;\"><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" border=\"0\" height=\"400\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/eldespotricadoranhedonico.es\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/05\/the-self-seers-death-and-man-1911.jpg?resize=387%2C400&#038;ssl=1\" class=\"wp-image-2455\" width=\"387\" \/><\/a><\/td>\n<\/tr>\n<tr>\n<td class=\"tr-caption\" style=\"text-align: center;\"><span style=\"font-size: xx-small;\">Egon Schiele. <i>The self seers death and man<\/i> (1911)<\/span><\/td>\n<\/tr>\n<\/tbody>\n<\/table>\n<p>Hola:<\/p>\n<div>\n<\/div>\n<div>\n<\/div>\n<div>\nVeo tantas veces su rostro reflejado en cada objeto, cada lugar o a donde quiera que dirija la mirada, que no puedo dejar de sentir convulsiones violentas en la mayor parte de los m\u00fasculos de mi cuerpo y una especie de ahogo o sofoco, que empa\u00f1a la absoluta totalidad de las horas en las que estoy despierto. Pero por la noche, esas visiones adquieren un poder inusitado, y la aflicci\u00f3n combinada con los sue\u00f1os, me sumergen en una vor\u00e1gine de dolor lancinante inextricable que s\u00f3lo cesa cuando me abandono entregando mi psique malherida a las caricias desproporcionadas del Diazepam o sus derivados. En esos momentos, mi cuerpo y mi mente est\u00e1n m\u00e1s cerca de la muerte que de la vida, y ya nada me importa demasiado; ni siquiera esa tiara de oscuridad enfermiza que insensibiliza los breves instantes que dedico al ensimismamiento y la abstracci\u00f3n.<\/div>\n<div>\n<\/div>\n<div>\nMientras analizo los palimpsestos en los que est\u00e1 grabado mi pasado, no puedo dejar de sentir un estremecimiento cuando observo que lo he malgastado de una forma est\u00fapida, innecesaria e infantil, trocando el esplendor memnoniano que me fue entregado por mis ancestros, en vacuidad rebuscada, gratuita y afectada. Es tan f\u00e1cil dejarse llevar. Resulta tan c\u00f3modo echar las culpas al car\u00e1cter. Me he comportado como el escorpi\u00f3n durante tantos a\u00f1os, que incluso estoy convencido de que ya no existen las ranas. Y sin batracios a los que picar, \u00bfpara qu\u00e9 sirve la ponzo\u00f1a? Quiz\u00e1 deber\u00eda replantearme la situaci\u00f3n, el conjunto de circunstancias que condicionan los hechos, la relaci\u00f3n o correspondencia entre estos y mi naturaleza limitada.&nbsp;<\/div>\n<div>\n<\/div>\n<div>\nIntento imaginar que ya no existe, que nunca ha significado nada, pero no puedo seguir minti\u00e9ndome, pues mientras fabrico esas falacias a la carta, su rostro sigue perturbando el orden y el estado de mi infelicidad. Podr\u00eda&#8230;\u00a1S\u00ed!, pero no ser\u00eda justo ni con ella ni conmigo, ni siquiera con la imperceptible se\u00f1al que me permite acomodar los hechos en la situaci\u00f3n necesaria &nbsp;para lograr un \u00fanico y determinante fin.<\/div>\n<div>\n<\/div>\n<div>\n<\/div>\n<div>\nUn abrazo<\/div>\n<p><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Egon Schiele. The self seers death and man (1911) Hola: Veo tantas veces su rostro reflejado en cada objeto, cada lugar o a donde quiera que dirija la mirada, que no puedo dejar de sentir convulsiones violentas en la mayor parte de los m\u00fasculos de mi cuerpo y una especie de ahogo o sofoco, que 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